Tempted to Throw in the Towel

This week has been a doozy!  It seems there is so much discord in the body and unbelievers are getting downright hard to work around!  Every once in awhile, I get the urge to move!  Moving is the way I used to manage stress before walking with Messiah.  The last time I was this tempted to chuck it all and start over was spring of 2012.

I'd allowed the serpent into Goshen and when I realized it, I didn't know what to do!  I prayed, of course, but I honestly didn't know how to get rid of it.  This serpent came along with folks I dearly love and immediately the tension was horrible.  I don't do well with mockery and then of course, my track record of success with any family dealings falls into the negative numbers, so I was ready to sign over the deed, hand them the keys, pay the title company myself, and go searching for another place.  It was that intense!  When it did finally explode, although it was painful for a time, there was a sweet relief in the fall out, yet I digress . . .

In looking back, of course, my fleshly solution would have been abject rebellion against my Dear Heavenly Father.  If I'd have responded in surrendered defeat, not only would I have missed the Plan of Adonai, I'd have literally given the spoils to the enemy, only to watch the vision become the worst lamented memory of my life.  So, I'm hanging on to that piece of history as I am tempted, once again to "give it up and get moving!"  This time I am much more resolved in my steadfastness.  I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, this is where I'm to be, and this is what I'm to do, so I won't be entertaining the notion of giving the place away to hit the road.  What I will be considering is expanding the ministry in yet another area.

Obviously, many are going through trying times, so it's clearly time to realize, "it isn't about me!"  There are hurting people out there who don't have what I have and need Who has me!  Trying times are at hand and Messiah said to be ready.  The last thing I need to do is to take all this time of preparation and throw it out the window, just as it's needed.  As I continue to seek Him and hopefully gain spiritual maturity, I realize, I've already been called to prepare for those who will be heading to the wilderness.  Even when it feels as though what I'm doing is useless, I cannot abandon my post!  Rather than throw in the towel, I must keep my eye on the prize of the high calling.  Throwing in the towel would definitely leave me unprepared for His bigger purpose.